Sunday, August 31, 2008

Alone

For starters, I apologize, this post will be a bit sad...
But sometimes that's how life is. (Just don't read it if you're feeling down already)

Sometimes I just feel so alone, I have friends, I have fun,
I come home, I put on my music, I watch movies, I talk with my family.

But then, I feel alone.

Alone is one of the most crippling emotions.

If God said "It is not good for man to be alone" then why are we left alone?

Why does our society of noise not fill the emptiness of the silence?

Why is quiet so unsettling and depressing?

Why must we surround ourselves with people who don't actually care?

Why don't WE care?

What have we come to?

When did we forget love?
If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

When the leaves fall...

... it's not over - everything is just waiting for the spring.

This morning I went back to bed after church, and I read this book, and I felt alive. The book tells of Julia De Smit, an ordinary girl; broken, hurting, seeking, longing, messed up and lost. She's reinventing herself, to prove that she is more than just the product of her past. She's trying to find out who she is... and making mistakes along the way.

It's a story I could really identify with and it was refreshing to read a book that didn't give any easy answers. Julia wrestles, struggles, fails and eventually finds the only one who gives us love unfailing. Sensitively written, honest and reflective; it moved me.

The most beautiful part of the book for me was in the final chapter, she finally comes to a realization of who she is, defining her life with "I am... " statements, finally settling on "I am a new creation."
It inspired me to define myself...



I am...

I am a daughter, a sister and a friend.
I am a teacher in the making.
I am a lover of life.
I am a bookworm, a muser.
I am a seeker and a finder.
I am a wildflower on a roadside.
I live in the now but not yet, embracing the tension.
I am in the making...

I am a new creation.




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Now playing: Simon & Garfunkel - Blues Run the Game
via FoxyTunes

Thursday, August 14, 2008

A gem from urbandictionary.com


While a deeper post is in the works... I bring you this gem.

attention spam
A condition resulting in a failure to process basic facts or comprehend common knowledge, due largely to having a mind full of useless information.
eg. Kali's numerous typos were a result of her suffering from attention spam.

Otherwise known as "Liz every single day" especially after aikido - when I have epic failing at even sweeping the floor. Brilliant