I figure my blog deserves an update.. for all it's patience in sitting there, and to be honest... it's always there for me. Sob.

Well plans have changed since I last graced this here page, the missions trip hasn't worked out. I'll just say it's complicated..I'm bitterly disappointed but also content. Some things God just puts a hold on.

I'm certain there are other important things that God wants me to do with my year. I plan on using the time I've got to figure out more about Him.. and about my foundations, and who I am because of them. I'm going to Laidlaw College to study for a Graduate Diploma in Theology (Pending an acceptance letter!), which I'm really excited for!

And meanwhile my world continues to change around me.. life gets confusing at times, or most of the time.

"All my days, I've been finding ways of searching for a better way,
Come what may, all my days, I'm searching for a better way back home" Better Way - Mumsdollar

Forgiveness

As I hold on
To what's gone before
I stumble along
I trip and I fall

I must learn to let go
Let the past fall away
The hurt and the pain
Only causing decay

And my heart that has bled
For far, far too long
Must truly mend,
Bleed out and be gone

What once was is over
What could be still is

And my God, oh my God
Still constant
Remains
'mongst the ruins I've made
Once they're cleared away

A stable foundation
My compass, my guide
I will search forever
To return to your side

The battles not over
It's only begun
But my God, oh my God
Still constant
Remains

And whispers to me
"Fight on for I've won!"